weirdo

Permit me to tell you, world

that i am really looking for my self determination about what i gotta do next in my life
studying medicine..? go through out science and so on
coz now i am not in mood in doing anything else but i must

coz i suddenly feel like i am not on either stabilized nor the right step

i need more guide, more clues

or i just playing in this lazyness?

but all i feel is guilty

i am sorry world, for not being honest from the start
i am sorry for putting these things behind
i am sorry because i practically face you, talk to you, without being really care
and now i am talking like this
you would understand i think, but it would make distance between us, so i am sorry
i still love you
i now you exist in this dimension with meaning
you came, you smile, you touch my heart all the time
telling me i shouldn't have this kind of disguise

regards, zahrin

turn up

Semakin sangsi kalau aku orang 'media' atau bahkan 'jurnalistik'. I don't have any sense about it anymore, or even doing and enjoying it.

Sky.
Human body.
That's what i concern all about.

Shame

I know i had given up

I am giving up what i want the most
for what i want now

Never thought this could happened

Ok, now i learn that that's the importance of dreaming, remembering what we want/search/yearn most

oh Allah....